I hate this old house. The wood creaks like my old bones. Convictions, dreams, anxieties, estimations, reveries, and intents all burn crimson. I wish I could say the same of this wretched asylum. Nothing ever works at the appropriate moment. The electricity flutters like a bird taking its first flight. I am amazed it is still erect. Every room reminds me of a wasted life, shattered by ill-conceived notions of seamless attachments. For what. For who. For lust. For Love. Or neither. Absolute shell of a home. Absolute shell of a man. Its 3:45pm. Friday. The sun intrudes stealthily through my blinds.
“Hope has two daughters, ANGER and COURAGE.
ANGER at the way things are and the COURAGE to change them.
”
“baby we can shed this skin
we can know how we feel inside
instead of goin’ down and endless road
not knowin if we’re dead or alivesome things are worth fightin for
”
some feelings never die
I’m not askin for another chance
I just wanna know why
Robert Tepper
“ We are lonesome animals. We spend all our life trying to be less lonesome. One of our ancient methods is to tell a story begging the listener to say — and to feel — ‘Yes, that’s the way it is, or at least that’s the way I feel it. You’re not as alone as you thought.’ ”
John Steinbeck (via delgrosso)
“ Emmer etvas!” which means: always something. which a man never quite understands until he begins getting older. not that age is an advantage, only that it brings the same scene again and again like a movie madhouse. ”
Bukowski, Charles. “A Popular Man.” Tales of Ordinary Madness